Friday, August 7, 2009

Dear Mum..

Dear mum,

Today I had lunch with your best friend, Aunty Limah. She brought me to that japanese restaurant in equatorial hotel, and aunty limah ordered me your favourite dish (seafood teppanyaki).

We sat and talked, of course about you. How we miss you so much..and how you'll live in our hearts forever. Dah setahun izza tak jumpe aunty limah, and she hasnt changed a bit. Still as graceful and beautiful as she was before.

Aunty tanye pasal izza, adek2 and ayah. I told her we were okayh, despite the fact that we miss u. I asked her to advise me about what path i should take in the future, i'm so confused right now mum~i wish u were here to tell me things i needed to hear.

We shared our memories of you. I told her how i missed waking up to see you getting ready in my room(i still dunno why u love to use my mirror when ur's is 10 times huger than mine!!~). She told me you were very happy and excited when i started buying and wearing makeup, and dolling up whenever I go out. Something I never knew.

Aunty asked me what i've been up to these few years, how my studies were. She said she's so glad to hear I've been doing fine in my studies, and that if you were still here you would be proud. I needed to hear that so much...

There were so many times I choked up tears while talking about you, it has never been easy. Even after these 3 years. I told aunty its so hard to be the strong one in the family, and that I would often cry in the middle of the night without any reason, just becuase i miss u. Crying and crying in silence until i have no tears left, until i cry myself to sleep. Aunty carressed my hand, comforted me...we both felt how much we've lost since you passed away.

We both talked about how you were full of life, how you still went to the interview for the promotion to being a Prof. a week before you died. You were so positve that you'd live, and I'm confident that there are so many things you would have wanted to do.

After two hours of talking, aunty drove me back to my car. We said our goodbyes, and I hugged her as I would have hugged you..

I miss you mom..

I'll never forget you...

I long for your love, to hear your laughter again, to taste your cooking..

I know you didnt want to go, I know you fought hard for us..

But its okayh mommy..I understand that its your time to go..I know you're watching over me every second..and you'll be in my heart as long as i live..

No one can replace u, and you'll never be forgotten..

I love u Norhayati Abdul Mukti, my mummy...

Thursday, August 6, 2009

WeEkenD acTiviTy...

  • Friday: -Have lunch with my arwah ibu's best friend, Prof. Datin Dr. H
    - Interview with SONY ( waa. tak study lg...)
  • Saturday: -Shoping baju convo with roomate..eh, ex-roomate (kene pakai mask ke huh?6 people died already la...)
  • Sunday: -Business seminar with adwina (i'm playing donald trump's theme song in my head..money money money..MONEY!!~)

Waaa...Dear GoD PleaSe HeLp..I'm so ConfUsEd!!

Owh..wouldnt it be easy if life was a burger, or a gule2. Whatever choice you make, whether u eat it or not whould not make such a significant difference. But yes I know for a fact that life is exactly the opposite of that. HAISHHHHHHHHHH....

Kayhlaaa..ape yang saye confusekan? Ape lagi yang yag biase fresh grad mcm saye confuse..Nak sambung study ke nak keje? Kalau nak keje..keje masuk oil and gas ke, keje kilang (intel@SONY@agilent and the list goes on..).kalau nak sambung study, course ape yang hot and marketable? waduh2..nie yang susah jadi org flexible tau..

Kalau u campak saye kat mane2 pun, i'll do my best tak kesah laa bende tue minat saye ke tak..because to me its your work so its your responsibility. But going with the flow has major drawbacks, which is you dont know what to do when it comes to making important choices.

During this recession period, I've been blessed with a few job offers. oooooo opportunity....why do you come knocking all at once huh? (aish..tb2 rase mcm tak bersyukur)..Im just whining and complaining sbb I betul2 confuse.

Lg2...i tak bleh tanye org yang kenal my strengths and weaknesses..the person who believes in me most..my beloved arwah ibu...

Dear God, please give this confused servant ur guidance...amin...



Wednesday, July 1, 2009

OuT oF mY LeAgUe..

First day of work...valves, loading arm, drip bucket...HuH?finally i saw it..RS232..ahaks,yeah something I know!!~=)

Nervous..

Esok keje..Don't know whether I shoud say yeay or buhoo..eheh..but I'm surely excited!~better get some sleep..taa~

Monday, June 29, 2009

ThaNk yOu...


This post is dedicated to 4 friends, which I've shared my final year with. I'm just writing a simple thank you, thank you for being great brothers, and a great sister to me throughout the months that we have known each other. A lot of things happened, but somehow we made it through. I'm not saying goodbye, becoz I'm sure will see each other in the future. Thank you for the laughter and the funny (sometimes obscene) jokes. Hehe..thank you also for the knowledge that was thoughtfully shared. I'm waiting for the day that we'll lepak same2 and share what we've been up to for the last five years, and in the background someone will be asking "cite pasal ape nie wieh?"...ahaks...so thank you guys, without u life would surely be duller. The picture above is courtesy of Syikin. Thank you for this lovely photo compilation of our moments!!~love ya all...

Thursday, June 25, 2009

ThE purPose..

Hey guys, so its my first entry. Its 4 o'clock in the morning, I'm not exactly sure what to write. For years I've been against opening your thoughts and feelings for the world to read and judge, but I guess I've changed...for the better I hope. Thoughts and ideas will be shared in my blog, also significant life events. I wont write about what I ate and drank that day (unless its utterly delicious~), share sob stories and gossip. So that's about it for now...over & out~